I am called

Yesterday in Sunday School my pastor friend was talking about the times of the prophets throughout the Bible. While talking about one of the time periods, she said it appeared that God was losing.

Sometimes when I listen to the news, it feels like God is losing today. The hatred and fear and rejection and hunger and violence is overwhelming. The fact that it is broadcast into my bedroom first thing in the morning sometimes causes me to feel like I can't breathe. I am supposed to be a part of the solution and all I want to do is put my head under the covers and stay in the warmth of my bed and breathe (and hide).

I am only one person. A person with my own disappointments in life..... feeling a bit overwhelmed with the responsibility of my job, my singleness as a parent, my finances.... actually of just doing life as a single woman. I am tired of doing it all alone.

And yet, I am called. I am called. And I feel inadequate and incapable. I feel scared and lonely and yes, a little selfish about what I want to do with my time. How many times have I said, "no" to the call.

And yet..... I am called.