50 Candles

I made it to 50. This is worthy of celebration. 50 years goes by really fast, but it is a long time. There is much in my life for which to be thankful. There has been much joy, love, growth, and happiness.

There have been many friends, some who came for a season, some who came for a reason, and some who have chosen to stay a lifetime. I have been blessed by each and every one. I am grateful.

I have family who have stood by me, encouraged me, and loved me even though we live so far away from one another. They have allowed me the freedom to be me. Through good times and bad times, I am grateful.

I have two young-adult children whose very existence brings a smile to my face. I can remember my prayers to God asking for these creatures to be brought into my life, and I remember the prayers prayed thanking Him for them, and asking for His protection, his healing, his wisdom, his kindness, his love, his instruction... in all things concerning me raising them and in all things concerning what they need from Him and from this world. If He loves them more than I love them, then they are in safe hands. I am grateful.

I have my health. I have my home. I have my job. I have some financial resources. I have some things. I am grateful.

I am thankful for my faith and the hope that fills my heart for this world and the people who live in it. I believe in Love. For that I am grateful.

I have known romantic love. Unfortunately, I have seen commitment fall short of forever, which sent me wondering if romantic love has ever been real for me (and many others, I suppose).  I am grateful for the lessons learned and the happy memories.

Life is good much of the time. The goodness is usually found in kindness, compassion, love.

I may live 5 more minutes or 50 more years. I know not the time I have left.

I know, without a shadow of a doubt, that I will try to live my time well trying to make a difference.

Tonight, I will raise a glass and toat these 50 years and the rest of time left here on this earth.

Thank you, God, for all you have given me thus far and for holding me all these years. What would I have ever done without your grace, mercy and love. Thank you to those who pointed me towards You when You were Who and What I needed. I am grateful.

Namaste