Amazing and Magnificent

My dark chocolate Dove wrapper at lunch today read, "Keep the promises you make to yourself."

Oh my, that is so appropriate for me these days.

I made a promise to myself that I would write more, spend more time alone in solitude, create more, and do what makes my heart sing - which might just be what I am purposed to do, or at least that is part of the search and adventure and journey. I promised five mock ups of a creative idea, I found in my conscious mind rolling around, singing a song.

Sadly, however, I seem to put "my life" off. It is still somewhere "out there". I am again in survival mode, doing that which must get done now, and "my life" is going to start after I get "all this" done.

I am going to name this behavior, for it is a part of my action. And it is bigger than just doing graduation tasks or home chores. This is about avoiding stretching and growing "my life".

I shall name it Purpose Avoidance.

How's that.

What might cause me to avoid MY purpose?

Might it be fear, apathy, or sheer laziness?

Might it be bad habits?

Might it be disbelief in myself...... in the Power far greater than me..... disbelief in God?

I have been told that I am amazing. I have been told I am magnificent and I like hearing that, but do I believe it?

Sadly, I think I am someone with "a little something" to share, that may or may not be important or valuable to someone else, ...but I think it might matter to one or two..... or more.

Oh my! That sounds a great deal like disbelief.... in me. In who God created me to be.

OK - I am not claiming Purpose Avoidance. I have named it, but I do not claim it.

Instead, I claim AMAZING and MAGNIFICENT.

Namaste