No Regrets

I have said in the past that after my divorce, I made 2 mistakes:

1. I bought a new dog and adopted 2 cats. (Could be 3 mistakes, I suppose.)
2. I bought a brand new car and took on a car payment. (Could be 48 mistakes, I suppose.)

Why did I do these things? Because I could. There was no one to tell me not to. And not only that, but the kids were thrilled with these decisions, so I was making everyone in my house happy.

I have talked about other mistakes in my life:  a few nights of too much alcohol, a date or two that did not go well, a relationship or two that might not needed to have been, an angry word spoken or mailed once or twice..... you get the idea.

However, I am, who I am, based on not only the good decision and choices in my life, but based on the not so great ones too.

I love my pets dearly. They give me joy and a place to spend all my extra money. LOL! They love me unconditionally and can be funny at times and good company in others. Sometimes they have been the only ones in the room when I cried.... or when I danced. They have shared some very private and sacred moments with me, and I wouldn't give them away - so how could I call getting them a mistake?

My new car brought joy to me and the kids and eventually it got paid off. The car allowed me to be the driver for my kids and all their friends. It allowed me to take all my single friends out to dinner, to Halloween parties, to baseball games. That car was a way for me and the kids to meet friends, bring connections, and foster the old ones. There are many a converation that I can remember having in that car with friends and kids that brings back happy memories for me. No mistake there.

All those other "mistakes" I made helped me learn to have good boundaries. Helped me learn who I was and who I am not. Learn where my personal limitations are. Helped me learn how to communicate better.

So maybe there aren't any experiences that didn't end up serving a good purpose in some way in my life or someone else's.

I am going to try living life without regret, and loving what is.

Namaste